Saturday, February 14, 2009

sitting chillin at Caribou

So I don't write for months but then manage two posts in one day. I am currently at Caribou coffee because it is actually easier for me to concentrate here on my homework than it is at home. I have been reading a book for my writing class that I need to finish by Thursday for class. The book is "Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott. I am usually pretty good at powering through books and I devour them quickly, but with this book I cannot do that. I frequently have to stop and think, letting the meaning of what I have just read soak in. This is one of those moments.

More and more this semester I am learning so much about myself through the writing class I am taking. The lessons taught have nothing to do with anything listed on the syllabus. It is like I am going deeper into myself and being taught on a different level. I have been humbled in many ways by the lessons. If nothing else I know that I have much to learn, about being a writer and a person.

Oddly enough, my math class is having a similar effect on me. I am learning to be more precise and ordered in my thoughts and in my actions. My life and my thoughts have always been chaotic and disorderly. I am thinking now that might be the main reason for my lack of success. My professor frequently speaks of not being "ambiguous." I don't think my professors have any idea of the profound effect they are having on me and my life.

I may write more on this at a later date. But for now I had better get back to my homework...


Blogger Rottlady of the Ozarks said...

After reading what you have written here I can tell things are moving in a different direction for you. You sound a lot more content than you have in a long while. I'm so happy for you!

It's been quite a while since I spent time in school, about 10 years, but I think I understand the feelings you are experiencing. It's an awakening of old brain cells in a way that really feels good.

A realization that we aren't as old and unable to learn new things as we thought we were.

Keep up the good work! I'm proud of you.

February 14, 2009 at 8:34 PM  
Blogger azsky13 said...

Thanks Elizabeth, I really am feeling more confident. I think at one time I needed to be on Newsvine, but that is no longer the case. Now I feel like everyone is pulling at me there. It is just not the same. I think it is time to go and I have known it for awhile now. It is just hard to let go.

Being back in school is great, I know I can do this. I am doing this! I am sometimes a little overwhelmed by it. But it really feels good!

February 14, 2009 at 8:48 PM  

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